I met, fell in love with, and married someone I thought I'd be with forever. After the wedding, he looked at me and said, "I own you now." I shrugged it off, very funny, I thought, little did I know my nightmare was just beginning or better yet what a narcissist was.
I was slowly gas-lighted, torn down, financially, mentally, and physically abused. I went from a confident person to riddled with self-doubt. How did I let this happen, and I didn't even know it was going on.
I got pregnant and knew I had to get out for my baby girl's safety. She could not see how her strong, confident mom had been ripped apart until she was just a shell.
The courts have to support me, and when I could tell them the truth, they would see I was only trying to protect my daughter from a similar fate. What an idiot I was. I was alone, with no friends and no family in my state. When my ex received the divorce papers, he went ballistic. And just because he moved out doesn't mean any of the abuse stopped, it got much, much worse.
I felt so defeated. No one understood me, and no one was able to help me. I was alone, but I had to persevere. I had this beautiful three-month-old who needed a strong mama, and it was through her that I found my strength. I felt let down by the world, and there were more nights during that time where I cried myself to sleep than didn't. I am here to say I went through this like you, and I know what it's like to guess second everything you do and to exist as a shell of who you used to be.
I love you, you are a beautiful soul, and you are meant for more. Do not let them win; they chose you because you had a spark that they didn't. We are in this together, and we will grow into a source of strength for each other.
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